'Overcast'

I left the office as soon as it was six. On the ferry I watched the ocean sway, like it was painted in parts, and then wondered if I had ever related it to anyone, in a way ever half-hearted and clumsy. I might have, but my sense of retrospect has been cluttered and dissolved in an array of truths, half-truths, lies and dreams, and that makes the truth all the more far, foreign, elusive. Some days I ask myself when did I turn so feeble-minded: each moment a flash, and only vague imprints remained in place of where they were.

I came back to a homemade meal of instant noodles, as my friend who drove me back was busy with a personal matter thereafter, and he wasn't sure till when he would be. I passed to my mother a form which would serve as a useful reference / guideline, if I were to be filling in for this year's tax report (sorry, I am poor with terms of responsibility and maturity). My meager salary however, has assured me of another tax-free year. Then, I wondered how many people I knew personally had actually started paying taxes, feeling a little smaller the longer I pondered upon it.

The high E string of my guitar broke last weekend. I was placing it against the wall, when it had happened. I have yet to get a replacement. I am thinking of replacing the whole set of strings. The only thing that's keeping me back is its the bridge, which is falling apart. There are bits missing, near areas where the strings rest.

Today I woke up at six something a.m., after having slept about three hours plus. I realize I have no difficulty in functioning even when I am deprived of proper sleep. I drove mum around Taiping, on an itinerary which I took leave for, and settled everything in its place before we had a brunch consisting of various dim sum and chrysanthemum tea. In our geography textbooks, Taiping was known to be the most humid place in the whole of Peninsular Malaysia. I wonder if that statement has changed since I left highschool. While newspapers are reporting of Penang's heat wave, today, and since yesterday, I recall, it has been raining steadily here, in varying degrees. I didn't know I had actually missed walking in drizzles, until today, when finding convenient parking space had been a challenge.

It's been a good day, so far.

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